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Friday, February 22nd, 2008
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4:32 pm - few quick updates...will elaborate later.
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-winterguard going decently. getting tired of it quickly...the fall show is phantom of the opera...i'm SO excited.
-new year's eve mikal made out with ethan. ruined our friendship, ruined mine and ethan's [what was left of a] relationship. still in like with ethan. haven't seen him in months.
-going to prom with nathan. cute kid, very very cute kid. :] bf material, if he's interested.
-life's decent. still working out some kinks...but it's decent.
I apologize for not postin for months. XD
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| Sunday, January 6th, 2008
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9:23 pm - I never meant to be so cold.
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Wow wow wow. After this post, you guys are seriously going to think I'm a whore or something, because it seems that these days guys are all I talk about. Here goes nothing.
So. Let's begin with George. My love. XD Kidding. We're on a strictly friend basis now, and it makes me happy. I think he realized how stupid our whole situation was....regardless, we're okay now. Which is a good thing. Easy enough, eh? Okay. Here's the mind blower.
So I went with Nathan and his family to his youth group's Christmas party before Christmas. Had a lovely time and he invited me to come to their New Year's thing as well. I said I wasn't sure, because I knew Mikal would want me to do something with her. I find out if I were to go with her, we'd be hanging out with Ethan and his mom...Mom says I can't go. So I call Nathan and all that good stuff. Long story short, I end up at Nathan's church, yet again, and we had a blast. Mikal calls me in the middle of this, and upon finding out where I am, hangs up on me. I find out the next day, right after she hung up on me, she made out with Ethan. My Ethan. My ex-Ethan, to be exact...but my Ethan regardless. The guy SHE set me up with...the guy SHE kept saying was going to marry me. The guy SHE claimed as her little brother. INCEST, much? I cried. And I cried. And I cried. So that friendship went out the window, and she still thinks she's done nothing wrong.
Needless to say, my 2008 has started out with possibly the most drama I've EVER had to deal with. But it's okay now. And on a brighter note:
I got captain for winterguard. I'm really excited about this year. We gonna rawk. xD
Anyway. I'm off to make my life an un-soap opera. XD
current mood:  contemplative
current music: cold- crossfade
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| Tuesday, November 20th, 2007
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12:34 am - I could not ask for more. :]
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Today has been interesting.
Megan and I met George at Sonic for lunch. It was kinda awkward...but I realized something. I have absolutely no feelings left for him. Every time he hugged me, grabbed me, whatever he did...I felt nothing. It was amazingly horrible. Why? Because a) I eventually would have to tell him this, and b) That meant I'm not supposed to give up on Ethan yet. It was like...even though Ethan had no clue about the whole "boyfriend" deal, even the suckiest hug from him was a thousand times a kiss on the cheek from George. It's great. The thing is, how to get Ethan back, not to mention how to get George to quit being an emo kid and make him realize he only wanted me because he thought I would do stuff with him, which I wouldn't, mind you. >.< Wow. I'm too boy-crazed.
Sorry.
Anywho! I'm getting excited about coronation. I'm going with JodyB! His vest is not only pink, but it's glittery as well. I love it. XDXD Pictures will indeed be posted after the dance. :D
Lovemuch--
Eliz.
current mood: accomplished
current music: Bring Me Down-Miranda Lambert.
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| Monday, October 22nd, 2007
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9:45 pm - in a phrase to cut these lips, i loved you.
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okay. lots of catching up to do.
so...a) my grandfather was killed last friday morning. it sucked majorly. an 18-wheeler hit him and killed him instantly. that's been CRAP to go through. i'm dealing though, because, what else are you supposed to do?
b) He's back. George. He's been texting me, and im-ing me, and myspacing me...and i dont know how i feel about it yet. he apologized for everything that went on, and i feel like he means it...but a) i have ethan, b) he's in auburn, and c) i dont know how much i trust him. but i don't mind him calling me princess and sweetheart again...this is bad, i know...i've missed being wanted.
c) things with ethan haven't gotten any better. if anything, they've gotten worse. i miss him horribly, and the whole george thing doesn't help. i love him...but this just isnt fair to either of us.
d) another guy at school....stuart...he's a freshman...he's been calling me and whatnot...likes me a lot...i don't feel the same way...but i have trouble denying male attention. oh my gahd...i'm an attention whore...this is not good....
ugh. males. hate them.
current mood:  aggravated
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| Monday, October 8th, 2007
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1:28 pm - silly life and it's irony.
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Wow. I guess it's time for an update. I've been wayyy too busy these past few weeks. What with Mid-South (All 1's and Best in Class, btw. :]) and winterguard tryouts, etc. I need some downtime. But yeah! Life is pretty good I suppose you could say.
Ethan and I are doing okay. I still don't get to see him and his parents still don't approve, but with both of our schedules being this crazy [Him with football, me with band] I think we're okay. A week or so ago I got quite scared because I hadn't spoken to him in a while and talked to Mikal about how if his parents keep getting worse and we didn't get to talk anymore at all, we'd probably end up breaking it off. Of course, she goes and tells him. We had a nice little talk last night. He was supposed to come to Mikal's, but he went to some party instead. He calls me, says he just go "grinded all up on" by two very large black women, then he lost service. After about seven times of him calling me back and trying to explain he finally had sufficient service, so we talked through it. He said that if I didn't want to put up with him and his crazy parents, he understands, but if that was to happen he'd want to try it again the second his parents let him date. Of course I explained that I didn't want to do that unless it absolutely came to it, and that I honestly didn't want it too. I just told him i missed him, and when i miss people, i get a little crazy. He understood and everything and assured me that things are gonna get better. [Good to finally hear that from somebody.XD] He said that his parents were actually okay with me, aside from the fact that they STILL don't believe I'm a Christian. He said whenever my name is mentioned they always say something to the affect of "Are you positive she's got a strong relationship with God? Because we're just not sure," Don't get me wrong, his parents are cool and all, but who are they to tell me I'm not a Christian? They are some of the most hypocritical people I've met. Only God can judge me, not them. They have no right to, even if they are just looking after their son. I don't know. I think it would help a lot if mom wasn't so closed-minded and would let me go to church where I want. I mean, if I'm going to join a youth group, [Which I want to, terribly] I want to be in one that wants to grow in God...not just one of those sit there and gossip about who had sex with who and things that dont belong in a church. It makes me wonder though. If the Hiti's don't know I'm a Christian, do the rest of my friends? I love God, and I try to show it, but things like this make me wonder. I want people to know by my actions...and I'm not quite sure how to convey that.
Anyway! Off my soapbox. Just...if you're the praying type, please do. Cause I'm real confused.
And yeah, to all the non-Christians reading this, please dont think I'm one of those shove-my-beliefs-in-your-face type of people. I'm really not. It's livejournal, and I justneeded to rant. :P
Lovemuch--
Eliz.
current mood:  artistic
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| Saturday, September 1st, 2007
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1:03 pm - we can live like jack and sally if we want.
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Wow. It's been a while, hasn't it? XD Mmk. So, since I last posted:
Our first game happened. That was funny. The colorguard sucks this year. I hate only hearing about the danceline. But oh well. What are you gonna do? Yeah...here's my thing...Blake, our new colorguard instructor guy? He's an ass. I rarely cuss anymore, but that's the only word I can find to describe him. He gets angry over the smallest things, and I didn't see him smile once Thursday night. I HATE this year. Bad. Our band has gone downhill...anyone can tell you that. Anywho. Next topic.
Went to see Ethan play last night. I remembered why I hate football. Specially when someone you actually care about is playing. The first game I come to, of course, he busts up his shoulder. Yeah, it was pretty bad. I saw him first, and I pointed it out to Mikal...then the next thing I know she's on the sideline with his parents, of course I followed. Yeah...talk about scary. He didn't do anything horrible to it...it just got popped out of place. I don't like seeing the poor thing hurt. :[ I actually think he was more pissed off that he couldn't play anymore. That game, at least. But he'll survive. So it's okay I guess.
That's about it. I mean, there was that whole school thing....but that's just a load of crap anyway. I hate school this year. Idk. I guess everything has changed, and I just don't handle it well. Maybe nest year will be better.
Lovemuch kids.
current music: i miss you- blink 182
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| Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
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10:40 pm - le buh.
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Has anyone seen newest Scarlet Letter movie? I had to watch it in Mr. Nickels class, but I seem to have fallen in love with it. I think it's probably because the book had a more morbid, death-esque theme, but the movie has a happier ending. Books tend to do that; it's almost like literary works have the right to end horribly, while movies must almost always have a somewhat happy ending.
Plus, the man that plays Dimmesdale in the movie...not saying he's hot or anything, but his EYES are gorgeous. It's crazy. XD
I think I'm going to have to break own and buy the movie. XD I'm pathetic, I know. XDXD
lovemuch--
elizabeth.
current mood:  lonely
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| Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
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10:37 pm - i don't want to speak these words...
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I don't think anything could have said it better. Sometimes I worry that I like the boy a bit too much. And miss him too much, at that. I need am ethan hug. :[
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go (and never let go)
i'll never let go (i'll never let go)
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawal of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i ('cause i..), i don't want to make things any worse.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.
why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
current mood: lonely
current music: tiger lily- matchbook romance
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| Thursday, August 9th, 2007
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11:20 pm - if you go down, i'll go with you.
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buh. this year shall suck. badly. my schedule is horrid. first block I have Nevin for Chemistry. This is going to suck because it's first block. Therefor I will be sleeping. Great, right? Next I have Nickles for honors english. This is going to be a load of crap, because of all the lovely reading we were supposed to do this summer. However, i'm considering paying him to let me use his cappacino machine deal. >.< Then I have algebra two with trig with T. Williams. This shall suck because it is algebra, which I suck at. majorly. I do have Nathan and Andrew in there to keep me sane, though. hey, it works. Then, of course, band. which i'm not even going to get into.
I just really didnt want sumer to end. I really didnt. Im afraid that with summer...other things will come to an end too. I just...I dont want it to have been strictly a summer thing. Idk. Maybe it's the fact that I haven't spoken to him today...which is understandable...i imagine he got home from football camp and passed out, but yeah. that just makes my day all the better. not to mention im just in a general bad mood. i feel so left out of stuff this year...idk. it's weird. i guess im weird. i just wish i had last year back.
"all you've ever wanted is someone to truly look up to you--
now six feet under water i do."
current mood: disappointed
current music: the little things give you away-linkin park.
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| Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
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8:54 pm - c'mon and dance with me.
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Tagged by the lovely Ali.
List seven songs you are into right now. no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your summer. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.
1. "Breathe Into Me"- Red
2. "One Man Drinking Games"- Mayday Parade
3. "Come Here Boy"- Imogen Heap
4. "Ay Bay Bay"- Hurrican Chris [Weird, ik. You have to know the story. XD]
5. "The Last Song Ever:- Secondhand Serenade
6. "Brass Bed"- Josh Gracin
7. "The Little Things Give You Away"- Linkin Park.
Too lazy to tag folks. Sorry. xD
current music: two weeks in hawaii-hellogoodbye.
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8:47 pm - this just can't be summer love.
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I hate school. I really, truly do. It ruins everything good in life. I don't want to go back tomorrow. At all. School means more stress, less Ethan[as if there was much to begin with], less fun in general, practically no social life, and the depression again. Every time I walk down that hall it's going to remind me of him, and it's going to kill me. But hey! Whatever. I guess that's what school is meant to be. A hell hole filled with rotten memories and a small town of cockroaches. Buh. This sucks.
-[eliz]
current mood: crappy
current music: i believe in you-the fold.
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| Saturday, August 4th, 2007
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3:21 pm - i has a drumline duckie. :D
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hiya kiddos! :D
i feel like i haven't updated in a while....so i'm going to do so now. XD life is pretty good. i'm currently SURROUNDED with drama, but hey..that's to be expected. colorguard's started up, so yeah. drama central. but i'm not going to go into that.
it's really good to get to see all my band friends again. i had forgotten how much fun we have! a bunch of us all went to see hairspray after the picnic last night. it was beyond fun. mister haskew came too, with his wife. we were all worn out. XD hairspray is actually a really good movie, though! i didn't think seeing john travlta in drag would make for a decent film, but it was really good. definitely one of my favorite movies. :]
anywho. nowadays ethan and i talk more. that's definitely good. his parents are slowly becoming more lenient. i dont think they HATE me now, because they know we talk and they dont have a problem with it. sometimes it feels like he's the only one that doesn't get mad at me for completely stupid stuff. dont get me wrong, i love all my friends, but sometimes they can be so immature. he's just not like that. i dunno. i could be crazy. but whatev.
yes yes...this has been my lovely update. now i must get ready to go shop with katester. [i'd forgotten how entertaining that chick was! XD]
lovemuch dollface--
eliz
current mood:  chipper
current music: tv. XD
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| Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
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1:06 am - don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head.
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Don't you just hate when things get blown way out of proportion? Cause I know I do. It just ends to ruin a perfectly amazing night. Oh well. I'm out of it. It's not my problem to deal with, therefore I have nothing to worry about it. On with the lovely stuffs.
So. Colorguard camp. New instructor guy. He's not Satan. XD Great right? He's got us doing INSANE crap, but hey. I'm not dead. XD So I'm happy with the whole guard situation as of now.
And the boy. ::giggles:: Yeah, I'm a mess. A big, giggly, tangled mess. But I don't care. And apparently neither does he. Which is AMAZING. In case you didn't know. :D
lovemuch--
elizabeth.
[i know this was short. i just felt like updating. xD]
current mood:  giggly
current music: i miss you-blink 182
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| Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
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12:41 am - ::giggles:: Oops.
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Hmm...Ethan went over $30 on texting alone...that would be my fault. XDXD I feel kinda bad, cause his parents are taking it out of his paycheck. They were going to make Mikal pay for it because they thought she texted me a lot when they were at the beach...but she told them it was only like 5 times. [Which it really was...he stole his phone back. XD] Then his mom brought up the point the before he met me, he never used to go over...and proceeded to tell him that texting me THAT much was a little bit obsessive. [On his part, of course...she didn't know I texted him back just about as much. XD] I love that boy. I really truly do.
Anywho! On a different note, I'm quite excited about colorguard coming up. Pirates and band camp!! Woot!! XDXD Yeah...Considering it's 1:00 and I'm actually kind of tired...Wow. Suprising. Anywho! Love to all. ^___^
current music: VH1? XD
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| Thursday, July 12th, 2007
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2:03 am - everything changes...suddenly my life means so much...
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So...how's this for a change...I'm OOBERHAPPY!! I got to see my Ethan today. Lord. Sometimes I forget how much I like that boy. We were at the coffee shop pretty much all day and we were on myspace on John Stem's laptop he had there. xD I thought it was funny. I didn't even drink any coffee. [note to self...do that next time.] We had fun though. With Mathew, the gay guy that works there...XDXD He's hilarious. And I found out he knows tad. Great, right? I love it. I love life. He gives me ooberbutterflies. And he also pinky promised it wouldn't be another 4 weeks before I got to see him. XDxD I love that boy.
lovemuch--
elizabeth
current mood: ecstatic
current music: RASCAL FLATTS. XD
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| Wednesday, July 4th, 2007
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2:11 am - i'm not who i used to be.
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Mmk. So...Next post today! xD
I miss the boy. I've fallen for him. Pretty hard. And I love him. And I miss him. In four days, it will have been a month since I've seen him. I need a hug. Horribly.
He's my addiction...and I need rehab.
I'm a mess, and I realize this. But again, I love him. I really, truly do. And I hope this works out.
lovemuch dearies--
elizabeth
current mood:  anxious
current music: brothers on a hotel bed-death cab feh cutie
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| Tuesday, July 3rd, 2007
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4:03 pm
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So...I would like to apologize for that last entry. That's me in a [BAD] mood. I'm good now. Pinky promise.
lovemuch--
elizabeth
[random;; does anyone know where i can get some cheap cool pirate stuff? That's the theme for band camp, and i'm getting excited. xD]
current mood: chipper
current music: everything you want-vertical horizon
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| Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
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10:42 pm - don't think to hard about this--<3
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Ahh, life is good everyone. After him, [all of you should know who "he" is] I didn't think I would feel like this again. The whole floaty on air giddy butterfly-esque feeling? It'sss bacckkk. :D And this time, the guy isn't shoving a bunch of bullshizz down my throat to make me happy either. He doesn't have to. It's GREAT!! Lol. The only problem is, his parents are a bit uncomfortable with him having a girlfriend...so it'll stay friends for now. But knowing that that's the ONLY thing holding us back makes me feel better. He doesn't have a girlfriend...he actually likes me...it's wonderful. He's actually my age [gasp!] and he plays football for westbrook...he's hilarious. and the boy can dance. that's always a plus. heh heh. yeah, he's pretty much awesome.
kay. im done with my happy rant. :D
lovemuch--
elizabeth
current mood: excited
current music: don't be so hard-the audition
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| Sunday, May 20th, 2007
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1:59 pm - all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away.
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Wow. A week and a half, and it's all over. This lie I've believed for the past 10 months of my life, over. Done. Freshman year has been amazing, even if that's all it was. A lie. But hey! I'm not complaining. It was one hell of a FABULOUS lie. :D Made me happier than I've ever been, actually. But yeah...in no time that lie will be gone. Off to college with it. Thank you Jesus. I'm ready for a new year. Although, I will miss most of the seniors horribly. My Jordan, Jody, and Ali...yeah, it's going to suck seeing you guys go. We'll have to keep in touch.
However, I'm moving on to bigger and better things. Better classes, better friends, better things to do...better guys. :P I just hope this summer goes as well as I hope it will. And next year...well... I suppose we'll just see if my predictions are correct. As for now, I'm off to eat something. xD
Lovemuch, dearies--
e-liz.
current mood: anxious
current music: shimmer-fuel
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| Saturday, May 5th, 2007
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9:49 pm - you could be happy, I hope you are.
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So I suppose nows the part where I tell you how wonderful and fabulous my trip to Chicago was, right? I only wish I could. Truthfully, I don't remember much of it, even then they're mostly just blurred memories anywho. It's a beautiful, truly gorgeous city--one night we went on a dinner cruise and the view from lake Michigan is AMAZING. You could see the ferris wheel lit up on Navy Pier and all of the lights...not to mention it was foggy that night so it was a bit eerie at the same time... Oh, it was just wonderful. The view--not the night. That night was when George and I broke up. Lovely, right? My fault. I probably should have ignored his weird behavior until the trip was over [he was my bus partner, fab.] but that's easier said than done when Leigh is stuck up his ass. [And to me it didn't look like he was exactly pushing her away, lol] But really. With the exception of that, it wasn't a bad trip. We went to see Blue Man Group [second time I've seen them--still amazing] and we ate at this fabulous place called Carson's...God. If I lived in Chicago I would eat myself to death, I swear.] Then we went shopping/walking around [kind of] one day... This reminded me a lot of New York. It made me miss that city terribly...I'm trying to convince mom to let me go back this winter/next spring. It's so much prettier when it's snowing!! Wow--I just got way off topic. >.<
Anyways!! We also went to a White Sox game...that was...interesting. We were all tired and ready to go home by that point. Maybe that's why Evan Johnson turning himself into a pirate with my baseball hat and a piece of cardboard was so darn funny...we were all delirious. Teehee. We went up to the Sears Tower...It was cool I guess. We couldn't see anything because of all the fog [There was TONS!!] so it probably wasn't as cool as it would have been, oh well. We went to SO MANY MUHFUGGIN' MUSEUMS...god. Those were horrid. xD I'll take that back...some exhibits were kindeh neat, but most were more like "Hey, why are we here for five hours--I could have gone through this place in one!" Lol. And we went to the Shedd Aquarium. Georgia Aquarium=way cooler. Heck, Tennessee Aquarium=way cooler. xD I bought a drag-queen looking snake though. That was pretty cool. XD Yeah...It wasn't that bad of a trip. The dinner cruise was probably my favorite, ironically. Just seeing Chicago like that at night...I don't know. It had sort of a "Titanic" feel about it. Except I had broken things off with my "Jack" before we got on the boat, and we didn't sink/die. I suppose that last one's kind of a good thing. xD Another thing-- my roomies were the coolest. Megan, Shauna, and Kara...yeahhhh. We danced every night. They didn't allow me to be sad, and for this i love them. :D
hooray for home, though!! I kind of missed it. Only kind of, though.
On another note, colorguard tryouts were this week. Everyone made it, which kind of upset me...Some of the girls really didn't deserve it. [At least I don't think so.] That sounds mean, but really. xD I don't know. Some of them will quit before the season even starts, they always do...but I don't want to have to waste a drill spot, y'know? xD
Last but not least, I'm leaving you with lyrics. Amazing song that I found on my computer tonight. Didn't even know I had it. Wierd, right? xD
You could be happy and i won't know
But you weren't happy the day i watched you go.
And all the things that i wish i had not said,
Are played in loops till it's madness in my head.
is it too late to remind you how we were?
But not our last days of silent screaming blur.
Most of what i remember makes me sure
I should've stopped you from walking out the door.
[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]
You could be happy i hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything i own, smells of you
and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think just do
More than anything i want to see you girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
current music: you could be happy-snow patrol
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